picture! It was taken Thanksgiving
2006. That was my turkey in a bag!
Well, here it goes! I am fed up with my eating habits and addiciton to food that leads to my weight issue! I watched Oprah today and all these people talk about the "click" that turned them around and convinced them now is the time to lose weight. I sat there wondering, what is it that will make that happen for me? I keep waiting for this lightning bolt to hit and heal me of my eating issues and burn off the extra 125 lbs I am carrying around! So I figure, why not put it all out there for the world to read?! Maybe I can inspire someone else, or someone reading will post a comment and inspire me!
I know my food is a spiritual battle. Yes, I love food, and love to eat. But there are many times that I eat just because...I may not even like what I am eating, but I keep eating because I think somewhere in the back of my mind that whatever I am eating will fill the void I have....when really, God is the only one who will fill it! He is sitting there waiting for me to turn to him, so why don't I? The answer is sooo easy....why do I not turn to him? I believe the lies that food has a hold on my that is stronger than God....how foolish! When will I believe the truth? God so wants to free me!
Ok, God, I am ready to be freed! I am ready to be free of the weight that prohibits me from being able to accomplish all I need to just because of fatigue! My children, my husband, my grandchildren, and mostly God deserve a healthy me!
So I am ready to lose the 116 pounds I need to lose. Ava is 9 months old. I had lost all but 7 pounds of the 35 pounds I gained with my prengancy with her. Now I am 6 pounds away from being at my heaviest PREGNANT weight! UGH!
Today was a day I was going to fast in order to break the hold of food on me. Well that lasted until lunch! Then it was down hill from there! I finished off two bags of potatoe chips (they were mainly crumbs, but STILL). I had to bake cookies for Callie's bake sale tomorrow. I ate tons of dough and I think three cookies!
BUT God's mercies are new every morning! And tomorrow is a new morning! So for now I go to bed ready to wake up in the morning and fight with all my might and the power of Christ that is in me to conquer this battle with food!
I know my food is a spiritual battle. Yes, I love food, and love to eat. But there are many times that I eat just because...I may not even like what I am eating, but I keep eating because I think somewhere in the back of my mind that whatever I am eating will fill the void I have....when really, God is the only one who will fill it! He is sitting there waiting for me to turn to him, so why don't I? The answer is sooo easy....why do I not turn to him? I believe the lies that food has a hold on my that is stronger than God....how foolish! When will I believe the truth? God so wants to free me!
Ok, God, I am ready to be freed! I am ready to be free of the weight that prohibits me from being able to accomplish all I need to just because of fatigue! My children, my husband, my grandchildren, and mostly God deserve a healthy me!
So I am ready to lose the 116 pounds I need to lose. Ava is 9 months old. I had lost all but 7 pounds of the 35 pounds I gained with my prengancy with her. Now I am 6 pounds away from being at my heaviest PREGNANT weight! UGH!
Today was a day I was going to fast in order to break the hold of food on me. Well that lasted until lunch! Then it was down hill from there! I finished off two bags of potatoe chips (they were mainly crumbs, but STILL). I had to bake cookies for Callie's bake sale tomorrow. I ate tons of dough and I think three cookies!
BUT God's mercies are new every morning! And tomorrow is a new morning! So for now I go to bed ready to wake up in the morning and fight with all my might and the power of Christ that is in me to conquer this battle with food!
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